Friday, June 26, 2009
nope.. I think its not an art block..
I definitely could draw like usual..
maybe its because Im bored to death?? Im to freaking lazy?? god help meeeeh I need some motivation.. >A<
well you see, right now, I have to working on two freelance job, one is from Singapore, about some illustration card.. and another is for a color book illustration for a local publisher in Indonesia..
the job is actually are very much simple..so simple and easy its made me bored to death.. creepy how boring stuff could stop me from drawing..
yes, I supposed to finish this weeks ago.. and if Im not bored like this, I actually could finish the job, in only one or three days..but whyyyyy why oh why.. I cant finish this job quick?
why I keep delaying this work, and not finish it as soon as possible?
why my laziness have to control my mood like this..
if I keep on lazy, if I keep finding excuse, I wont be able became a success in the future right?
but why its so hard.. doing sumthing that I dont like.. its feel like my heart been stabbed every time i draw the line.. *hyperbolic..
but yeah.. it is hurt doing sumthing I dont like.. even if it also a drawing work..
Im such a spoiled brat..
I know I shouldn't take this job, if i dont like it..
well at first I think I could surpass and control my laziness..
I think my wrong.. .
but that dont meant I will give up..
I wont give up.. I just have to get on and do it!!
Im embarrass to the editor who willing to wait me finish so patiently..
aaah I have to stop being so irresponsible like this..
just tell me what Im supposed to do, to erase my lazy behavior?
should I take some hypnotist therapy? :D